Dying to be killed....

It is always like this.
When there is a sharp pain you feel.
When the world darkens around you.
When there is something missing.
When almost all hope is lost.
When help is too far away.
When love turns away.
When friends take a step back.
When enemies cast a shadow.
When an situation goes all wrong.
When you spent the last of your strength
and still haven't reached your goal.
When you loosing something/someone.
When hatred is among us.
It is always like this.
So numb to everything else,
Grasping for air,
Reaching out,
Body feeling heavy,
Mind and soul twisted and bent,
Can't think, Can't sleep, Can't eat
laying, just laying
not moving a muscle,
waiting to be killed.....